Ryan Vanni's profile

I would say i am mostly selfish, although I find it difficult to say no to things that i dont want to do. I procrastinate even with things i enjoy doing. I am easily distracted, but also have the tendencey to hyper focus...now that i think about it, i tend to hyper focus on the things i procrastinate. I mostly really enjoy getting to know people, but also avoid people i know if i see them out, and moreover will avoid small talk with those i dont know at all possible costs. I have a difficult time with moderation of anything, especially moderation. I tend to think a lot about what a blip our lives are which then spirals into a what-does-it-all-mean chain of thoughts, which i feel guilty for at times since i do have a faith, but then assume that it must be natrual. I have a difficult time committing myself to anything that feels obligatory, groups, clubs, social engagements, churches, and then feel guilty for it. Now that i mention it, i notice a running theme with the guilty conscience...so theres that too. All of that said, i enjoy my life, wife, kids, friends, and business so much, that i usually feel like i am getting away with something i shouldnt be. Man!, I sound like i was raised catholic. I have never kept a diary or journal. I know get why they are theraputic.

kids, wife, cycling, swimming, running, eating coco puffs and chocalate chip cookies in the middle of the night, then cycling, swimming, and running to try and not be 300 lbs, buying things i dont need, new music tuesdays, buying music i dont need on new music tuesdays